What Is Real?

What is real is: "*&%$$#*!&%$#". How our sensory perceptual cognitive systems interpret it, make sense of it, isolate it, orient to it, model it, limit and distort it is another story. "Given-ness" is most likely a property of our interpretive systems than a quality of reality (although I wouldn't take that as given). In the ultimate sense "the territory is not the territory". Reality most likely includes an open-endedness on an inconceivable number of dimensions and transcends any definition and anything that integral or anyone else has conceived of (complex or simple.) Perhaps the less distortions, delusions, and read-ins we have, the closer we understand it and are congruent with it. I believe we are "closest" to reality through "resonation processes" (vs emulation processes) which I won't discuss now. Also, it may take vast complexity to be vastly simple.

Read-in-eze

Read-in-eze a major obstacle to seeing reality (what is real). That's the process of reading things in to (or out of) what we see and hear. It is also the process of expecting others to read-in certain thing into what we say. No-one is immune from it. We are all really good at connecting dots that aren't there, creating gestalt of things that don't exist.

We keep projecting the dots that were previously and unconsciously connected at childhood. We fill in the missing dots in the "picture" we are looking at and then we connect them and of course these connections most likely form an image that fits our current view of the world.

Conversely, we are very good at not seeing and not connecting the dots we find painful. Built-in mechanisms protect us from being overwhelmed.

All of this is done in a fraction of a second and is not likely to reach consciousness. We forget that the dot connecting processes largely involuntary and unconscious. We are sailing our boats on a sea of mostly organismic involuntary, unconscious processes. Often our current "mature" cognitive processes are but "puppets" of earlier immature self.

For every conscious process we are aware of, there are hundred of unconscious processes making that possible. To the extent early childhood wounding occurred, pain-laden unconscious processes can produce distorted conscious processes.


One way to catch these processes is in the pre-thought gap (or post-thought gap). The pre-thought gap is the space that is pre-existent to each thought in which a thought can be detected as an object before it takes hold and runs its program. if it runs its program on automatic we are deluded no matter how accurate or high level it is.

Another way is in a deep core primal release that goes all the way to the point where the wounding actually occurred in the part of the brain which, at the time, had not developed well enough to metabolize the wound. This could be called the pre-rational window. It is not just the cortex accessing unconscious memories, but it is the limbic system giving up its full content and pain in full force to the whole organism for complete discharge and assimilation.


What is real?

What is real is "*&%$$#*!&%$#". How our sensory perceptual cognitive systems interpret it, make sense of it, isolate it, orient to it, model it, limit and distort it is another story. "Given-ness" is most likely a property of our interpretive systems than a quality of reality (although I wouldn't take that as given). In the ultimate sense "the territory is not the territory". Reality most likely includes an open-endedness on an inconceivable number of dimensions and transcends any definition and anything that integral or anyone else has conceived of (complex or simple.) Perhaps the less distortions, delusions, and read-ins we have, the closer we understand it. I believe we are "closest" to reality through "resonation processes" (vs emulation process) which I won't discuss now. Also, it may take vast complexity to be vastly simple.

Affirmation of the Healing Process

I state my willingness and intention to heal. I state my willingness and intension to feel my feelings. I am willing to allow the gates to gently open. I am willing to allow the hardness to melt. I am willing to risk allowing the unknown and unexpected to emerge. No matter how painful I will be there to feel what wants to be felt. I take each pain as it emerges and gently hold it in my arms and love it. I do this because it is me that I am holding and loving. It’s OK to feel afraid and lost. I give myself support with my breath and my gentle patient attention. I ask for support from others when I need it.

I feel myself exactly as I am. I feel my forbidden impulses and longings no matter how unacceptable they may seem. There is no part of me that is not worthy of unconditional attention and healing. There is no part of me that does not deserve to unfold, heal and find its rightful place. I sense and trust my innate intelligence and power to heal all of my wounds. I trust my own rate of healing and opening up. Whatever time and patience is required I will give it. I will journey from the outer layers into my heart of heats and explore my unknown territories. I am open to discovering all of what I never knew was there (even when it goes against my previous conception of myself and of the world). I am willing to feel what has never been felt so I can be and discover who I truly am. I am a being of many levels and many processes. I ask the process of life that is within me to teach me and to continue to teach me.

Calling Delusions Delusions

I believe we need radical social honesty. There are a preponderance of currently existing social delusions. They are delusions.

Every stage of development can develop it own unique delusions.

It is wussy however, to say everyone is "partially right". People with clinical delusions are also partially right, but it does not address what needs to be addressed. The word delusion is a much needed word and a much sharper knife to cut with.

We want to be kind to the reality of others, but this does not mean coddling delusions and not honestly looking at the mechanisms which create them. This social "pathology" goes way beyond what is to be expected from people at a certain "developmental stages".

The definition of "crazy making" is "to treat that which is not sane, as sane." Crazy making invalidates and dis-empowers everyone.

Gestalt Prayer Adapted for Perspectives (rough draft)

You have your point of view
I have my point of view.

Where one point of view overlaps
we can agree to agree;
where they don't
we can agree to disagree.

Let us appreciate our differences
and morn the loss of what we may not be able to share,
and celebrate the communion of what we do share.

Your point of view may
or may not overlap
with my point of view.

I am not in this world to see
the world from your point of view.
You are not in this world
to see the world through
my point of view.

If by chance and effort I can see your point of view,
I don't need to agree with it and vice versa.

Let us move to the higher ground of perspectives on perspectives,
and if we can move to higher ground together
let us not hold on too tight
to either our perspectives
or our perspectives on perspectives.

Conversions

Conversions start from the bottom up. If we can't deal with something that arises on one level, we convert it to the next higher level. The more conversions we do, the further we are from reality and the further we are from who we really are.

Nearly everyone does the following conversions, one level overflowing and being converted into the next:

1) Raw arising of object - sensation, feeling - response, memory - need from the core and from the "fertile void".

2) Next, conversion into imaginings, anticipations, expectations, projections, constant mental rehearsals etc. Past is converted into present circumstances.

3) Next, conversion into obsessive thinking & problem solving.

4) Next, conversion into rigid conclusions, beliefs & dogma that are partly unconscious and highly defended.

5) Next, conversion into delusions (which are incredibly robust).
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Dying to One's Self

To lay down one's life for one's self
Allow your self to die into your organism

No longer necessary
a sacrifice of the greatest love

No one is here
no one is here!

Reality itself sees

Be seen by the trees
Be seen by the mountains
Yet there is nothing to see
There is no one to look at

Reciprocal Perception

Reciprocal Perception means that unconsciously "I won't see, understand or EVEN PERCEIVE what you are saying until I see you perceiving and understanding what I am saying." 

Example: The Palestinians and Israelis. They don't get and CAN'T get what each other are saying, not only because as a whole they haven't developed the ability to see things through 2nd and 3rd person perspectives, but also because they don't even perceive the each other's perspective in the first place. Completely unconsciously operating: "If you can't see me, I can't see you"

The Lens / Mirror of Consciousness

In consciousness, the lens is is not separate from what is perceived.

A dirty lens creates noise and distortion which in turn can be perceived with distortion.

One cannot see the "flies in one's eyes" correctly because of the "flies in ones eyes".

A clear lens can be likened to the surface of a pond. When the water is quiet and not muddy it reflect or (resonates with) the outside world with little distortion and from many perspectives simultaneously.

Likewise the surface of clear quiet water reflects without distortion.

Healthy and Unhealthy Versions of Developmental Stages

My view of healthy and unhealthy developmental stages for adults

I believe the "90%/10%" rule applies to the healthiness and unhealthiness of the stages most people in the US are in.

That means that very roughly only about 10% of the people are in a healthy version of the " value meme" they are predominantly in, and very roughly 90% are in an unhealthy version of the "value meme" their "center of gravity" is in.

Focus on developmental stages has the potential of eclipsing another reality which is what Welhelm Reich called the "Emotional Plague". This is the "fact" that Neurosis has been passed down from generation to gerenation on a massive scale. This cannot be considered a normal part of development.

Below is a list of the qualities of healthy and unhealthy developmental memes

Healthy (10%)

Developmentally progressing

Open system

Degree of openess to progression

Vibrancy

Positive movement

Appropriate pain, frustration and discomfort

Ego dystonic and syntonic rhythm

Permeable

Self testing

Childlike

Innocent

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Unhealthy (90%) None of these qualities need to be a part of ANY level of of development

Developmentally arrested

Closed system

Defended against progression

Stagnation

Stuckness or regression

Avoidance of frustration & pain through artificial support

Overly ego syntonic

air tight defenses

self-fulfilling belief loops

Immature, childish relative to age

Naive, Jaded

Various Non-connected Thoughts Forming

1: Many of us feel we rationally can approach everything in the universe; however there may me "things" in the universe, relative to which, our mind is utterly psychotic-like.

2: We must distinguish between response-ability (the ability to respond or its opposite: response-inability) and accountability (knowing you are the person who will receive consequences of your actions, inactions and choices.)

The two are entirely different and totally confused.

If you have both predominant response-inability and account-inability, you're pretty much screwed for this lifetime.

We must take responsibility and accountability for what we don't say and what we don't do.

3 There are people who live there live more according to what actually may be inferred
and there are people who live their lives more according to innuendo and what is read in. Most people are of the second type.

4 Most people are utterly incapable of putting everything on the table in terms of what is actually there to be considered and attended to. A shared effort by two of more people to put everything that is truly due concern on the table is nearly non-existent from my point of view.

What may be truly relevant to be on the table, how much attention it initially may deserve and what may be truly irrelevant is a function of intelligence, cognitive and emotional honesty, experience, personal values and developmental level.

Self-Liberating

Fall from the tree with shimmering leaves and swaying branches
surrendering existence as you fall

Symphony playing itself

One note, One Taste

Bottomless space liberating itself

Motto

Highest consciousness

Highest creativity

Highest expression

Highest activity

Highest joy

Deepest shadow work

Deepest feelings

Deepest pain

Deepest release

Deepest ground

Deepest flow

Deepest healing

Deepest truth

Biggest whole

Never lose sight of the whole

Never compromise health

Namaste

See Yourself

To see yourself - look at a flower

Every arrow of attention that shoots out sends a twin arrow of attention within

As Emptiness and Form are the same, so are these arrows

These arrows can kill you

Die this moment and your life is returned to you

"Blessed are those who were born before they were born"

Blessed are those who died before they died

The “Gating” of Attention to Symbolic Realities

What inhibits our growth and development and prevents real healing? We live in a society where we are taught, since childhood, not to pay attention to what feels important. We find we have to adjust our needs to the world and can only meet them symbolically. We develop "acceptable" substitute, symbolic, deflected, “should”, or trivial activities. From early on, we develop mental structures that, before we even know it, "gate" our cognitions and feelings to regressive secondary or symbolic realities. Our preconscious gaiting mechanisms determine what gets entered into our experienced reality.

These realities become all that we know and can even imagine as reality, even if we imagine ourselves as spiritual beings. Our lives, for the most part, become only a symbolic acting out of what we originally “knew” and wanted. We become “should-ists” rather than "is-ists”. We become obsessed with following (or resisting) “shoulds” and “responsibilities”. We end up believing our own propaganda and story about our lives and "happiness" (or lack of it). Currently many of us do a "spiritual bypass" using “spirituality” as a way of avoiding what is in front of our face.

Naked Awareness - Naked Pain

Let naked awareness touch naked pain

Unlock that which is bound up

The unbearable is bared one writhe at a time

Don't hide from the wounds you don't know you have

Crack open futility and hopelessness to reveal the unfelt

Quotations and sayings from Dr. Carr

(Continually under construction)

One man's "too much intellect" is another man's "to simple and unthinking"

Create your life out of whole cloth

Most stimuli are really responses

Consciousness first, other concerns second

That which is not allowed doesn't get heard

You have no business spending a lot of time in your head if you're not yet firmly based in your heart

People with big egos either tout themselves, or put down others who tout themselves

Too much control eliminate possibility

How Truth Comes Through

How Truth Comes Through

The truth comes from all existence.

How could it be any other way?

It comes through in spite of any book.

It comes through in spite of any belief or religion.

When you grasp it you are misled.

When you think about it you are misled.

The most amazing thing is that we have such tremendous abilities to keep ourselves from seeing it

Consider just to stop doing what keeps you from the truth.

Consider awakening your passion to discover and find out.

Religion, beliefs and books can often be the tools of the sleepwalker. (We all start as sleepwalkers.)

Relying on them, without transcending them

is like stationing yourself at the sign post without moving on down the road in the direction sign is pointing.

It is also like wearing your clothes in the shower.

When you put them aside you get the full shower.

This "shower" washes away that which is not true.

It washes away our own bull shit and the bullshit in the world.

The water reaches the roots of your being.

What is left is a delightful spacious emptiness that cannot be compared.

Get naked.

In this space you can grow fast.

Feeing Felt

Feeling Felt

Breath Breathed

Thought thought

Existence existed

Nothingness nothinged

Not this, not that. What a relief!

Catch What Eludes You

Catch what eludes you.

Move along dimensions you haven't imagined yet.

Loosen the tight helmet of your own conditioning.

Embody the message of your own experience.

Breathe breathing. Feel what you haven't felt yet.

Waves lapping on the lakeshore for no reason, giving birth to each moment

Each a page in the true book of revelation